My wonderful future husband,
It’s crazy how you can miss someone you’ve never met. It seems like everything makes me think of you: the song that shuffled onto my playlist as I was driving to school this morning (Don’t Give Up On Me, Andy Grammar) or the Hallmark movie (Merry and Bright) that I just finished watching. Boy, does it all make me wish that I had you by my side; part of me desperately longs for someone to love.
However, I know it’s not our time yet – God’s made that abundantly clear. Right now, I’m really trying to show that love to the people who are around me. Of course, it’s not the same kind of love you’ll receive one day, but it’s just as important. That mission takes different forms – as of late, it’s cookies and handwritten cards. I hope one day, those little ministries are things we can do together.
I’m also working really hard on myself. I want to grow my faith more, and it’s my prayer that God just let His spirit consume me from the inside out. I want to become more dependent on God rather than looking for people to fulfill me. I’m working on loving myself and who God created me to be, without having to have someone else validate me. I’m learning to be content and to enjoy every moment.
Wherever you are, I hope you’re growing, too. One of my biggest prayers for you is that whatever mistakes you’re making/made/will make, that you don’t just sweep them under the rug and try to forget about it. Instead, I pray you choose to take a step back, reflect on the situation, and see what you can learn from it. Every experience can be a learning experience if you choose it to be.
I miss you, but I have faith that God knows what He’s doing.
Love you lots,
Your (Future) Wife